love to the moon and back forever

it's a weekend about me -
allen is off to the dear lease for his first hunt - he was soooo excited - there was a time i used to need him to have that kind of excitement to be with me - but have come to realize that is his passion and i am being selfish to force that passion to become less than it is - in other words it is a heart -thing - but just like he said wneh we were discussing this very subject - i was i was telling him i didn't have a hobby and he said yes you do - it is your kids - i would say "sure" but a hobby is putting it mildly - they are one of my "passions" - so that is ok - i will curl up in the bed with the dogs - go to my jaxons 5th birthday party - and his play-off football game and just enjoy the weekend.

my thoughts today are on the holidays - and how we can make them special - we are doing a new thing at thanksgiving this year - and ornament exchange - that should be lots of fun.

and making my list and checking it twice -

i did pick up my girls their first gift yesterday - yea!!! i am sooo excited -

we found out little macie has to go to her ( as she calls him her step-dad ) for Christmas this year - he has remarried for the 3rd time and his wife has changed the way he has done things in the past - so he will pick her up her first day of Christmas break and bring her back the day after Christmas - which to me is so unfair to macie - we all live in the same town - why mess up all her traditions and routines - and work together - but it is not about mcaie when it comes to him - but winning and all about him -
of course kalyn was devastated - and i was blowing a gasket - but then i prayed about it - and realized macie will respond and feel the stress on her own without us making it worse by being out of control mad -- it is what it is - and we have to be there for her to make her holidays before she leaves and after she gets home to be the best year ever for her - kalyn is handling it better now and i am very proud of her - as well as the rest of the family supporting kalyn and not making it any harder than it already is -

i tell you that brent situation - truly test my - faith - my temperament and my anger - this situation - falls under passion - except that now i realize you can have a different kind of passion than that of good things - i now realize you can have passions for causes and ( my passion against brent used to be that he would fall off the face of the earth ) but now my passion regarding him is that he will not disrupt macies little life too much and that he will be fair to kalyn - it is one of those "take your hands off - get out of the way and let God handle it ) and so i struggle each day to do that very thing.

kalyn told me her and Ben and Landon would be going to Abilene this year for Christmas eve - and that is ok - i love Ben and i know just because he married kalyn - his family is not gone- and i will never stand in the way of that or make it hard on kalyn - it would be very selfish and unfair - (now if they moved away - dear God i would need severe counseling ) lol!

melissa - my dtr - in - law - who is like a dtr to me - is trying to go back to school - and get her dental hygiene license - i am sooo proud of her - but boy is it hard to balance - studying - the boys and running a home - but she is moving right along -

i am sooo proud of all my kids they really do try - and stay focused - the only thing i pray for them it is that they would --ge their families involved in church - this burden - and i guess you could say passion ( boy i never realized how many areas of my life that word affected and in so many different contexts ) i know that randy and i committed our children to the Lord when they were little and we made it a priority to help them see the Lord in every way they could - thru us - in sunday school - church- and praying with them - and God has honored that just like he said he would. this world and even us as parents do not have what it takes to do it all for our kids - their hearts need MORE ----- i pray daily ( in fact several times a day about this ) a hope the kids will lead their families in this way -
i know myself i need to make a priority to get back involved in church -- i do miss it

i will work this week on my list of stuff to do around the house this winter - allen will not be impressed i am sure -

off the subject - i saw last night that linen - n - things is going out of business - i went in because i need a new bedspread - the new lab has snagged it to death - things are only 10% off now - so i will wait until that percentage is little More to get a good deal - but could be a great place to pick up some Christmas gifts -( it was the one in rockwall )

ok i need help getting the word out!!!!!!!!!!!!!-----------------

kalyn is going into a salon - it is called salons in rockwall - it is behind maladeline by TJ MAX one of her friend stylists may go in with her -it is pretty cool - you have your own room with cable tv and it is very classy and safe - if you go in after 7:00 you have to be let in - she needs your help and referrals to get back in it now that the kids are older - plus you will love the place - she does cuts - color - up-dos whatever you want - this place has permanent make-up tattoos and all kids of things - kalyns number is 214-354-0256 - her email is kalyneastep@yahoo.com
she does my hair - melissa - renne wynnes whole family and a lot of other people she has been doing ----

well poppi ( allens grandpaw name ) is on his way to the deer lease and i just got a hold of a dear friend of mine for dinner and drinks and i am soooo excited to see her - she lives in rockwall our kids were in high school together.

talking to her remind me of friendships and how much they mean and are needed in our lives -

gosh - once again my cup runneth over

love to the moon and back forever
ceebee